Tuesday, April 26, 2011

All Alone Again...

It’s been a while since I last blogged. I thought I would not even open this site anymore. But being a thousand miles away from home on my natal day, lonesomeness brought me here. And so here I am again after a lull of ten long months.

I’ve already been in this hole for a number of times. How many of my birthdays had been ‘celebrated’ away from my loved ones? Must have been a dozen times I suppose, or maybe just a little less. So there should be nothing unusual today aside from my statistical bump in that department. Yet I guess it would still have been better if I’m home. Pretty sure that my kids would hug and kiss me as if like not a must during birthdays. And that my wife would wish and maybe suggest me great things right through my ear. And yes, my dogs too…

But in retrospect, why do people celebrate birthdays? What is the feat that is won in every single birthday? Is it because we have lived another year again? But some would even end theirs! Wait. Or is it because it is how it is done in movies? Well, that can be a valid reason. And add up that there is a global feast every yuletide too, though that’s a far way different aspect. So it is now certain that birthdays are just celebrated ‘procedurally’, and not objectively.

Given that even if I want to, I can’t celebrate by myself due to the fact that I don’t even know where to treat myself. And so today I am compelled to be but alone hitting my keyboard, literally communicating with myself, and at the same time thinking something that goes; “What do I have to thank for, aside from being a year wiser once again”. And so I began to count my blessings.

I have a great family; a wife that is very kind, supportive and beautiful too, and three wonderful daughters that I can’t imagine what life could be without the inspiration they bring me. And just by that alone, I don’t think I would need any better motivation not to think of having more birthdays in this life. Their smiles, and laughter, and everything I see in them, just pushes me to want to live longer.

And my Mom who is still very healthy and strong, who would never cease to pat me by my shoulder saying I’m doing a good job. That even when I’m on a remiss, she would always tell me to just move forward and be enthused at all times. She’s my up-keeper, my untiring counselor, and my motivator. And she’s having her birthday tomorrow too.

Same goes to my sister and brother and their families too, for not missing to cheer for me. Just by the thought that they are there watching over my family’s welfare either from a distance, in silence or in person, I know that I am so blessed already.

And yes, my dogs too.

Life is sweet. Life is beautiful. Be it a birthday or just another ordinary day, I’d rather choose to be diplomatically productive by performing my job as a son, a brother, a husband, and a father - rather than to celebrate in naught.

And also as a believer. At foremost I can only thank God for endowing me this opportunity to pass by this world with all these blessings surrounding me.

Or am I just saying all these because I'm alone?

"Happy birthday, Carlo."